Failure is not Truth!

Hello everyone!

So much has happened these last 2 weeks! We had our first class last week (Recognizing the Voice of God) and let me tell you it was like nothing I have ever experienced before! It didn’t really seem like a class it was more like spiritual boot camp. Day after day just learning the things that keep us from recognizing God's voice and then just sitting and letting him speak so much truth into our lives. He essencailly just starting ripping lies out and filling those holes with truth.

Two huge things that God started to teach me last week were: 1. He wants me to discover him, for who he really is, not who I have made him to be. He wants me to discover him like a child discovers their daddy's face! I am his daughter and he delights in me just like a daddy delights in his daughter’s first steps.

The other huge thing that he has been teaching me is that I need to let myself be loved, by him and friends and family. I also need to let myself love as well. I have been so scared of being hurt once again, but he has reminded me that he won’t leave me as a dry and barren land but he will replant what he tore up. It is so hard for me to be vulnerable with people, but through a few different circumstances that he has put in my path there is not option to love and let myself be loved!

Yes these lessons may seem like elementary learning but let me tell ya it is so fundamental to my faith!

Another thing that clicked today was that Failure is not truth. The only reason why we think that we fail is because of the things that other people have done, the bar's that they have set. God did not create failures he created sons and daughters, warriors and conquers. He knows what we can handle and I think that most of the things we feel that we failed at weren't even things that the Lord was asking us to do, they were things that we figured we should do. Ah pleasing people and not God, something I am definitely guilty of.

Prayer requests!!! Please be praying that my mind and heart will remain open to what God wants to do. Last week was so huge and I am still exhausted from it, my I am in a way going into a defence and I can feel myself building walls up.

Another thing that kind of goes hand in hand with that is just this feeling of being ready to go home. I think a combination of home sickness, being satisfied with what I have learned these last weeks and just wanting to give up. Have no fear I am staying here there has never ever been a moment of doubt that this is where I am suppose to be. It is just so much to take it in such a short amount of time.

Thank you all so much for your continual prayers. I can definitely feel them everyday!

~Sheri